take it in

Have you ever felt, in an instance... that you're the ugliest thing there is? that nothing about you is beautiful, neither inside nor out. Like being held or seen as something beautiful is something that you are not suppose to ever experience....I just feel like a fool. Unworthy and worthless. I'm...Ugly and you shouldn't trust me... I'm to blame for it, no really. It's really hard for me to actually see my worth right now. Even as these tears fall, I see no reason why I should even cry. If you can't make me feel beautiful then I guess I'm not. If I can't make myself feel beautiful then I really must be fuck ugly... let's be ugly on the inside too. I put myself down and I'll try not to give a shit to any self-defecating remarks I make of myself. Take it in, take it like a man and face it alone.