Little Princess Vain-ass

HAHAHAHAAHAHA... Okay, I found out about something mind-boggling thought not surprising~ She is part of this family anyways.  *ahem* So like my little niece is such a little vain-ass. She took my mac, smartly clicked on photo booth and took pictures of herself.... SHE TOOK LIKE 30+ !!

But I think I'll just post up a few :p hehehe...

HAHAHAHAHA APAKAN AYSYA?? What's with the shuttlecock darling? x)

Hee~ sticking her tongue out

Making a silly face

 MORE silly faces! Lol, I do think she takes up after me when it comes to making stupid faces on camera x)

 She is totally camwhoring x) but like, you can so tell this was early in the morning from the way she looks so buntu HEHEHE.

*snickers* oh silly girl, I love you.

This is probably one of the most vainest shots! TAKE A LOOK AT THAT SMILE! the way she positioned her shoulder LOLOLOLOLOL. Benar, this little girl is totally part of our family x) teehee.

She's so pretty :3 I can't wait to see how she'll be like at 16. LOL, hopefully not like me lah ah... I was such a bit-- yeah. HMMM... 

Heh...

Another one of my days out while waiting for classes to start. I went out with one my dear friends...

HEHEHEHE... look at her expression. Caught her scared/shocked/oh-shit! expression because she was tempering with the feather boa and one of the workers there tagur ia... X) Ah, so cute~ x)

Went to Euro Classics and I impulsively bought these in-ear earphones... :D EHEHEHE.... JUST BECAUSE they were pretty looking and it blinged :p Iunnoo.......... I do have a bit of a problem at times x) People should know to slap or pinch me whenever I have this crazed look on my face when I buy things k? It's really troublesome for me in the end. So just yeah, just do bodily harm to me (lightly lah!)

BURGERS.

Hiiii~~ Hello! I hate burgers. Omg do I ever hate them *cries* oh no oh no, why do people keep buying burgers for me to sungkai with during puasa? Lamb burger after another or like beef burger. Okay people, I know I lack blood that's why you try to make me to be 'not pale'. But honestly... Stop buying me burgers. Although, I am still quite curious about all these special burgers people have been talking about all through out the month.

BUT OKAY, point of this blog is...

AKU SANAK LIAT BURGERS SUDAH OKAY? JANGAN BALI LAGI PLEASE. OK?= BANAR. I feel pukey... =/

Every few days, this ends up on my palate....

First two times I liked it.... But then, throughout the fasting month, it kept cropping up in front of me like mushroom growth or something! D: I get sick just from looking at it.

Ah, what was my family thinking feeding me burgers -____-); They slightly redeemed themselves though, by getting me a Big Mac one day :) BUT, by this time I was totally getting sick of looking at meat slapped between two buns (LOL! freaking hell double entendres) despite it being McDonald's I was STILL sick of it. sorreh...

 BUT HEY~! Nuggets! :D I supposed it's because somehow this year people made such a big hype about all these supposedly nyummy awesome burgers. Like there was like Kapow Burger, Ahao Burger, Monster Burger, Taty's Burgers... Macam2 lah pokoknya D:

AND EHHH... that one night when I really wanted to puke right, Muiz sent me a picture of this...

WTF MAN. WHAT THE FREAKING FUXK! D: I totally felt myself regurgitate a little... O____O

Nevertheless~! It looked really BIG and I have this fascination with big-sized things :P haahahaha... Hmmm...

A comparison of the burger's size to his... face. LOL. Damit ah mukanya? *snickers* Apparently he told me this was like... an XXL burger or something. Oh lord~ just thinking about having to consume a burger of that size makes me feel a little queasy...

Oh, but don't get me wrong, burgers are one of my favourite fast-food meal. It's just that, the fasting month has gotten me temporarily sick of it. =/ But yeah, how are those famous burger's anyway?

TOO MUCH OF SOMETHING IS NEVER GOOD. 

Unless... it's, well yeah :P hahaha. ANYHOO! *blows kiss* byebye :)

Sexy Beast.

I came across a sexy beast the other day :Q__ So Muiz and I were driving around Kiulap, looking for places for him to fix his laptop... when all of a sudden... we saw this sexy car parked sexily outside a shop in Kiulap. *fans self* I had an eye-orgasm. LOL labihhh...

But honestly, if a guy was as sexy as that car. I'd do him a thousand times over and not care if people looked on. HAHAHA KIDDING! :p (maybe)

Oh baby Maserati... why you gotta be so sexy? T___T

Picture that I took of the car... lol.

Ahhh sayang eh! You can't really see it, but it was so lawa :( I want to just touch it... and I couldn't take a good picture because people are like bound to look and know that I am being a total dork. ahahaha... Believe it or not, this guy was being even more of a dork x)

*sigh* I want that sexy beast to be mine one day ♥ ♥ *prays* nanti nanti, sudah aku kaya.

Apes, Cowboys, Aliens and Zookeepers~!

Soooo~ I've been busy with movies :p I love watching movies ehehe... I recently learned from my mama that I take after my daddy~ XD ANYWAYS.

Ima talk about the movies I've watched this month alone... So, first up is:

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One thing I have to say is, god damn that poster looks scary! D: It's like... iunno it just really gives me the shivers! LIKE, apes will overrun the freaking country. LOL. Okay one more thing ah... Please please don't say I'm weird O_O BUT, if I was a chick ape, I'd find the main ape kinda good looking XD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

*waits for people to poke fun at her*

ahem... whatever. You people have no imagination. Watch the freaking movie, maybe you'll know why I think the freaking ape is quite good looking *snickers*. I wanted to watch this with several people but they kept turning me down because well, my chick friends and family are sometimes just... really~ *shrugs* No comment! BUT, thank the lord for Nabs ♥ lol. She ended up being my movie buddy for the day hehehe... we both liked the movie :D

So, the story basically centers around this... dude, I think he's a professor, if my memory serves me right, he was a professor not a doctor :) YEAH, well he's played by James... Franco. (I get confused between James Franco and James Marsden sometimes :p)

So James Franco's character is a professor that works for this big corporate company that issues medicinal drugs or supplements or shots or whatever. So JF is in charge of researching this "product" that can possibly cure Alzheimer's disease. So during the first part of the movie, we wonder why other characters in the movie kept mentioning how he shouldn't let personal emotions get in the way of the Company's ambition.

AND we later learn that his dad has Alzheimer's :( How pitiful...

So the company's test subjects are on animals... specifically on Apes, cause I reckon it's because of Darwin's theory on how Apes are the closest animals to resemble humans *cough* So ehhh... I'll speed through it. A breakthrough happened... THE DRUG WORKED! :D Thus a ape call 'Caesar' comes into the picture. hehehe... :D Yeah, the handsome ape I was talking about earlier :p

It becomes about the ape and he is so freaking smart that yeah... it caused a ruckus and then Caesar and some other apes were running amuck in the city. Epic shit in my opinion.

Alright, so if you went to the movies having high expectations and only comparing it to how the story unfolds then you will be slightly disappointed I think. Why I loved it, is because... if you were to really think about it. It is some awesome shit being written there, the possibility of it happening~ it's simply unnerving! :D It gave me chills hehehe... SO screw you people who said "It wasn't THAT good." UGH! well, okay, each to his own.

I freaking love how they showed the consequences of what being a conceited arrogant dick of a human being can do! Moral of the story is, be nice to animals too okay? I hate people who treat animal like shit. I mean, I am not a freaking tree hugger or an animal lover, I ain't some loving hippie~ BUT, you are so EVIL if you kick animals and terrorise them, don't be mean to anyone or anything, K?? They can bleed too okay? Stop being a dick. Baie.

One thing I noticed about this movie... LOL. what's up with the chockfull of British Actors? :p hehehehe... found that amusing. I like the movie. I give it an 8.5 (I don't give perfect scores hehehe so that's pretty good!)

Now as for the movie "Cowboys and Aliens"...

LOLs.... somehow the poster is suitable for some erotic cowboy porn or something... Like oh yeaaa~ the cowboy is so bringing sexy back with his sexy gunsssss ;D *wink wink* Honestly, I was expecting it to be good~ WHY? well because for one thing, I finally agree with the casting of Daniel Craig as this sorta character X) Yes, I'm referring to him as James Bond.... I totally disagreed with that, he lacked the good looks of a Bond spy... I mean, he's too rough looking and rugged. I watched this movie with Muiz, yay~! another movie buddy lol... other than Nabs hahaha~ . Anyways~

Daniel Craig + Cowboy = Great Combo!

BUT, I was so let down.............

I WANT TO SAY IT TO EVERYONE.... DON'T WATCH THIS MOVIE IN THEATRES. It's definitely not worth the money =__=); I have nothing much to say about this...

The storyline was sloppy, special effects were okay... it had no actual depth. Some parts were left unexplained and all through out I felt SO UTTERLY CONFUSED. We both were actually, kept asking each other if we understood the movie. LOL. Action was good I guess... but oh what the hell. I recommend you to just get it on DVD.

I'm rating this movie..... a..... WTF out of 10 :D Yes. I'm serious.

Lastly, is "Zookeeper".

Uhmmm okay... watched it with Muiz again. He was telling me how it was supposedly a funny ass movie right... And well, it was a good movie. Had parts that got me laughing and crying and well... some were just... okay~ But lol, there was this one part of the movie that got me reaaally confused! XD So you see, there came a part where the animals were teaching the guy how to "keep a girl", it was the Bears' turn... and lol, this person next to me *co-muiz-ugh* was like laughing so hard at it... HAHAHAHAHA. He found it so amusing it was almost cute. x) I supposed he loves bears. *shrugs* xD

So this story was very mainstream; quite predictable at parts, the humor varied from being ok and good, the storyline was... I won't say typical, but yeah okay, maybe it was just like Dr. Dolittle with a bit of a twist in it. It made me tear up a bit and it had touching moments... :) I liked it. Not bad actually, but not much of a loss if you were to miss this in theatres.

I'd rate this movie a 7 out of 10 :)

Alright, that is pretty much it~ Good stuff yes? hehehehe... I don't know how to write a proper review, this is basically my thoughts on them~ If anything though, don't just shun a movie just because people say it sucks, taste varies, so you might like it despite me not liking it. So the point is, give every movie made an equal chance because it's nice to see for yourself if it was a poorly directed movie or otherwise.

A showcase of NOMS!

Dishes that I thought looked worthy of me taking a picture of:

I just felt like being the dickens of a devil by posting up pictures of food during puasa. HEEHEE. I have this thing where I have moments where I like to decorate my food. x) It's annoying really. hahaha...

Anyone who has me as a daughter, friend, girlfriend, wife or whatever is so freaking lucky. I can do a shitload of things~ =p

I started cooking because I like doing it and the initiative of doing so was my decision x) yeah, it was definitely not a case of being forced to learn because I would starve had I stayed overseas without any able form of motherly figure that would cook me meals... LOL. Okay, that seemed like a bitchy statement. WOOOOPS~! Some times I run off my mouth and say offensive things. Doesn't happen all the time, but it happens. So I am kinda sorry about that ^_^); eheh...

Oh look at the time, it's almost time to break my fast :D

Oh, by the by~

I have totally forgotten to mention that.... this hair...

(HAHAHA yeah idk why I chose this pic out of everything I had :p)

HAS BECOME.... THIS HAIR.

(I laaaaavs that head band :3 so fluffy! hehe)

Cut the freaking thing short. IT WAS TOTALLY IMPULSIVE. =( I regretted doing it... *sigh* but honestly though, when have I NEVER regret chopping off hair? It was getting really long too... It was almost reaching my ass. Lol. how sexy is that? I could just go around the house *ahem* kidding, I meant MY ROOM. with just my panties on and like... I can cover my boobs with my thick mane of hair... HAHAAHA mane.... X) hee...

Honestly that's what I strived to do when I was growing my hair out. I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHY I CHOPPED IT OFF. *sigh* sometimes being too caught up in wanting to just do something out of boredom can really be the death of you, you see. Haihhh... Oh and I'm so freaking impulsive :p I realise that now.

days that have gone by...

Hiii~ I know I haven't posted up shit in a while. I shall now flood everyone with updates of my thoughts/life by editing and uploading all my previously drafted posts that have not been published cause I was being a total procrastinator. x) This is just like a small recap of the things that have happened that have pictures to illustrate said moments =p

As you all probably know that I've been in school for like a month now. I'm taking 4 courses... My only free day is Thursdays. Why? Because my classes are stupidly spread out every single day... sometimes I only have one class per day =___=); Monday is my most hectic. SO GUESS who'll be having a serious case of the Monday Blues~~~ *sobs* I cannot understand why there are classes on monday AND why they had to take away my saturday like that... =/

This is so totally funneh... My "stalker" friend took these pictures of me during class.... LOLS. with my very own phone! How skilliiiing is that? x) Anyways, one is actually candid and one isn't. Can you guess which is which? :p

Very bad pictures of me though, I look awful cause this was the day I came to class right after I exercised and shit... Yes, with the same exact clothes I have on in the picture. HAHAHA. Grossed by me now aren't you~? HEEHEE. nadalah, I changed of course x)

And here we are at Capers... which was a waste of money because... well, the thing about me during Puasa is... I AM SO FUH-REEKING HUNGRY all day every day... so when I eat during the sungkai... I get so full easily, that's really how I am. So I have to eat before I get really hungry, else when I do eventually eat, I'll eat a little and I'm full and I won't actually have enough to last me for the day.

LOOKIE~! My two babies :p Muai and Nabs. Yes in that order. hahahaha.

And then we went out for coffee and had a slice of cake each at Fleur de Lys. It was tres awesome to be chatting with this set of girlfriends again :D Although, one is missing here... Qils! :( She's in London so yeah... she was back in Brunei for like only two weeks or something. Didn't even get to meet the little bugger! -____-);

Aaaaand then, there was another sungkai outing. Went out with my three babies and... Muiz. HAHAHA. Yeah, Faie, Muai and Nabs~ We grabbed our dinner of Sushi at Excapade~ at Regent Square :) I didn't take pictures because I think it would have been inappropriate considering they were trying to get to know Muiz~ so we can all ease up when we go for our trip together (^__^)

Funny thing-- well no, NOT EVEN funny~ Hahahaha :p everyone poked fun at me. Like okay, is there something about me that people just seem like that want to tease me and shit? I guess I give off this impression that I can laugh off everything after getting really embarrassingly excited or something or or or... omg I have no idea. APAKAN APAKAN! Why do people like teasing me??? D: *pout*

And then, we all headed out to Coffee Bean, cause Nabs and I in particular were craving for coffee... lol we are like super duper deprived of our weekly dose of coffee. Like we have it almost every other day but during puasa macam... zilch! It's sad, really.

She made a dorky face when I took a picture of her as we waited to be serviced... LOL. serviced. I meant served. :p TEEHEE. Astaga... puasa nis puasa. AHAHA.

*blows kisses* that's all :D for now.

....stupid....

Hi bloggie.

Lately, I don't want guys who want me. No really, they start being all mushy and I'm all like... HELLS TO THE NO. They're nice and all.... but, antah... *shrugs* I don't want a guy right now. I don't want the sugary flowery treatment.

kthnxbai.

Love me. ♥

That one night :)

Oh, this is so totally fucking up the time line of the blog. LOL... this happened waaay before the fasting month commenced. Me and my other set of girlfriends met up~ Zafirah came back down from UK so we got a little get together dinner and caught up with eachother's lives :)

L to R: Zaf, Zatie, Sally and Faie.

SALLLLLS AND HER EPIC EPIC LOMO CAMERA. it was too adorable for words :3

It was a fun girls' night out. My food was crap though... =/ never have the Carbonara from Grazie Maurie. Freaking tasteless... even after I added salt and tobasco and whatever shit I could find to give it taste. LOL. Drinks were nice though ;) no complains whatsoever.

eheheh... ada org menagih bah the gambar... so I'm posting it up now :p I'm not a fan of facebook anymore. lols. I share more (than before) via blogs and twitter now.

Practice!

I suck at putting make up on... whether it be me or on others.

So I've been doing a lot of practice on other people... plus I just get really excited to put make up on others... LOL. I am girly in a little way huh~? A friend once asked me why I waste my make up on others~ She continued by saying "inda kau sayang kah your mac and revlon and stuff?"

I wouldn't say it's a waste, because for one thing... It's something I like doing for others. Another thing, make up expires within a year or two. AND, I guess why she says it's a waste because I don't buy cheap make up... I mean it isn't 'expensive' like Bobbi Brown, Dior and YSL. But it's not cheap... like... silky girl. LOL WTF... I'm sorry that's so offensive of me.

ANYWAYS! I have to say I am relatively better now compared to last year. I'm also practicing plucking people's eyebrows... hee... some let me, some don't :D HAHAHA. Here are pics of my (non-existent) talent on putting make up. I like subtle looks, so none are over the top... At least I don't think so :O

hahahah okay... I don't have ALL of them on camera. But here are some... :p I am even showcasing a job that was crappily done xp Don't be mean~ aahahaha

Honestly. I just love playing barbie dolls with all of them~ LOL. Practicing is just a lame excuse for me to do so~ hahahahahaha :p

Miri miri miri

I know this is really odd of me but there is just something so enticing about going to Miri during puasa... LOL.

Okay, it's PROBABLY because I have been having coffee for quite a while now... since, well, I usually have Coffee every other day during day time with my Pringles a.k.a. Nabs :p So the other day we were just driving around killing time and hanging out in between classes and we were talking about how it would be so nice to have coffee right about that time....

AND we fantasized about Starbucks... :) LOL. I mean Coffee Bean is good enough, but I guess we just felt like having something different~ :) Oh god, I want my Java Choco Chip soooooo much :'( Plus it seemed kinda fun to be going on a road trip right?

So yeah, I've decided to go to Miri with her and yeah, Muiz too... and perhaps maybe some others. Plus I kinda need to shop... I have that itch again. So totally need to go down there. I seriously don't know why I cannot shop here.... Except for make up though :3 I love that they have all those Korean make up brands here... hehehe it's more suitable for Asian skin... ;D

I have really awesome company! They've all gotten me through everything crazy that I've been through this year :) I hope the remaining months of 2011 would look even better for me. hehehe... Honestly, I do not want anything serious for a while now. I need a break from all that 'stuff'... =_=);

On a side not: Happy Fasting to all my family and muslim friends :)

Let's all be little angels for a while... hahaha :p

One of the simple things that can make me smile :)

is to finally get this in me. oh yeah~ :p

Amaranthine Intoxication

Changed my blog link due to numerous reason, one being I'm successfully getting stalkers. Yay. *rolls eyes* no but seriously, the same people who google the word slut and horny have been coming here. It's making me think I'm getting the wrong sort of attention from the wrong type of people.

Purple Poison was always one of my personal favourite actually... So I was kind of reluctant to part with it. I mean it IS simple, but it has a story behind it. A secret more like. But somehow it describes that period of time when I was in that state of mind and also the time where he was -- though a very small -- part of it. Regardless! He is STILL part of it la. So, as I am seriously trying to get rid of that asshole. A small reminder is still a reminder of a sort. Am I right or am I right? Lol.

But seriously, I am more passionate now in trying to get him out of my life because he's stupidly trying to reach out to me. FUCK LA *cough* excuse me. I just don't deal too well with people who were stupid enough to think with their penises. I was alright with my other exs because at least they didn't think with their dicks. Well they did, but you know, neither of our futures were riding on that relationship. Plus with the rest of them guys, we parted on amiable terms~ :) So I could still talk to them after a few weeks/months (depending).

Hmmm~ I'm not a cold heartless bitch or anything. But yeah, maybe I won't hate him anymore once the years have passed. Sorry though, just not now! :) OH but whatever, I have the right to ignore whomever I please. It honestly feels difficult though, I am really sorry towards the mother. *sigh* Sometimes I think I shouldn't think too much about that cause yeah... I need to completely get over it which means trying not to remember the kindness she gave me.

I'm the kind of girl who would put all her exs behind her, unless they're really nice guys worthy to have around. I only kept like.... two out of my 10+ boyfriends... (eheh). I am very picky. I love keeping the company of a selected few rather than have a lot of friends. That may not be the best option to you social people hahaha, but I feel like I can be more sincere with everyone that way :D ANYWAYS! Meleter pulak saye~ hahaha... wth.

AMARANTHINE INTOXICATION... so why have I chosen this particular name for my blog?

I've always had a slight tendency to like... do research on really random shit right. It really depends on what my thoughts are for that time. Through the years of growing up, it's safe to say that sometimes I have an obsession with certain things. I'm just curious about things.... At one point it was an interest in mythical creatures so I read up on a few of them and then about myths of the world and whatever. At one point I was intrigued by my lineage/heritage... I think I've even blogged about that at one point like yonks ago :p

So one time, like a few months back, I was looking at my room and how it looked so flowery... heehee... Inwardly I thought to myself, maybe my brain's telling me I've picked up an interest in flowers or... plants. *snickers* I like thinking that everything (coincidental) that happens in life are like signs from something of a 'higher' power. I mean not necessarily supernatural... it can be like how the brain's neurons combined with personality or whatever plays a role on things should be perceived............. that sounded like a whole lot of BS. HA! ignore that... :p

Anykahooies~ I don't know how I do it, but I just started surfing the net for really random things about flowers.... and I came across something almost poetic and pretty~ or maybe I'm just being a pretentious little shit hahahaha~ but no, I really felt like it was pretty... plus the word sounded pretty: amaranthine.

That's pronounced: a-muh-RAN-thin.... the stress is on the 'ran' bit. So it's "a flower that never fades." I was like... awwwwhh!! that's so cool :3 LOLs. I am such a simpleton sometimes... In my head I saw it as a beauty that never fades... :D cause flowers represent beauty :p thus why I thought that really... teehee~

What's more is that this particular flower is said to have an interesting hue of dark purple with red tinges.... I felt like it was fate that I came across this! hahahahhaha... awu lame, just because I love purple. So in a way, my url 'amaranthine intoxication' is kinda like a double entendre... maybe not even that, I guess it can have multiple meanings...

If you remember, my old url was purple poison. It's basically the same thing but with different words. or maybe I'm talking about a beauty that intoxicates the mind or whatever.... haahha you literature people can read into that if you'd like! But yes, I give things some amount of though if it's important to me :)

THERE, that about sums up my stupidly elaborate explanation of my new blog url! :P

Twitter followers.

According to this website twocation (click on link, if you want) my followers come from these countries...

Argentina : 0.30%

Brunei Darussalam : 32.40%

Indonesia : 11.50%

Japan : 0.30%

Malaysia : 12.40%

Netherlands : 2.70%

New Zealand : 0.30%

Philippines : 0.90%

Portugal : 0.30%

Singapore : 8.20%

U.A.E. : 0.30%

United States : 22.10%

United Kingdom : 8.20%

Interesting, no? Lol. Yeah no it isn't I was just bored today~ but interesting thing happened. Someone went anal at the thought of me going some place with someone................ *confused*

ANYWAY! I am now going to enjoy my espresso double shot x) with cream. NYAM.

Lavvv Meee ♥

10 random facts (again!)

#21: The first thing I do when I wake up is check my phone and look at my twitter timeline as if it is my daily morning newspaper x) LOL.

#22: I enjoy a lot of different things. I don't stick to one thing because I love variations in whatever I can experience in life; in life, matters of the heart, hobbies, taste in music or food and everything else.

#23: I tend to procrastinate a lot, but I have my moments! X) Although, I have this thing where I would do something even if it takes years, I'd get it done...

#24: I hate it when people ignore my texts or call. I hate unresponsive people; the thing everyone should know is that it's better LATE than NEVER. Comprende?

#25: When I like something or someone, I immerse myself in it. I'm the best thing you'll have if you've got me liking you. You wouldn't believe the things I would do...

#26: I'm touched easily.... especially when I watch movies or shows or cartoons. Thus, I cry a lot :(

#27: I bite. So I can't actually say "Don't worry, I don't bite." without it being a total lie. Some say that's like sexual/kinky/disturbing/gross... LOL. But really, I'm just playful like that :p

#28: I have my days when I wish I could be a different person. Just to see how it feels like :)

#29: My way of facing a problem or coming up with solutions about certain things can be really bizarre or weird, that's why sometimes I have the most curious of wishes.

#30: I want to be married before I turn 29.... if it's possible. I'm so old right now... the clock is ticking. I'm 20... well will be 21 in November... OMG, that's just 8 years left.

Being a guy...

So, the hours I spent with Muiz today going around in his car was filled with amusing moments... lol a bit of an eye-opener to be honest XD But hmmm... one thing he said to me about guys totally stuck with me. I can't say what exactly, because that's the cardinal rule :P

Anyways, you won't know the logic behind this but the thing that he said to me, made me coincidentally think of something else we talked about~ :D it was a song... I mentioned it, heard about it but never actually listened to it... so tonight I was like yeah okay... let's check it out.

After which I was like... Oh okay, so THIS is what Muiz meant by what he said... this song showed a little aspect of what he meant, but I get it now, it totally explains the behaviour of such men (especially the kinda man in this song as well, imo)

Hmmm... he made me laugh a lot today, I should thank him for that tomorrow... Especially after that time when some jerk tried to get an ego boost from me or something. Baaaa~ka! xp

Partyin' every night

questionin' my life like

what am I doin here

when I have my girl just waitin' for me

got her text on my iphone

asking when you gon' be home

then I take my time to respond

even tho I know she worryin' bout me

Why do I keep treatin' you so bad

When I know that you're the best I'll ever have

Why do I keep doing you so wrong

If I keep this up, in no time you'll be gone

I'm just saying, I'mma do better

I know you've heard that countless times before

I'm just saying, I'mma do better

and I hope this time, that you believe me

Do you really want this?

She's fed up, so she asked me

but I'm all quiet now

cause I just don't know where I wanna be

Her tears wet my tshirt

i'm thinking does she really deserve

the man I am right now

Can someone explain this to me

Why do I keep treatin' you so bad

When I know that you're the best I'll ever have

Why do I keep doing you so wrong

If I keep this up, in no time you'll be gone

I'm just saying, I'mma be better

I know you've heard that countless times before

I'm just saying, I'mma be better

and I hope this time, that you won't leave me

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This song is from a guy's perspective of when he's hurting a perfectly great girlfriend. LOL.

This goes out to all the stupid jerks who "don't miss the water till the (freaking) well runs (bloody) dry!"

Yes, okay~ Goodbye :)

Polaroid

I've been dying to take pictures of everyone I know!! But damn, I keep forgetting to bring my polaroid camera along :( or well, sometimes when I do remember to bring it. I FORGET that it's in my bag!

WHY IS MY MEMORY SO BAD LATELY!? It's bugging me... I keep going "oh crap, I forgot." every time I come back home from whatever it is I do or when I'm lying awake in my bed at night... I always recall of the bagajillion things that I've forgotten to do that day. =___=);

I'm planning on hanging everyone's picture in my room... in like a "creative" way. LOL (hopefully I would manage to pull that off). I'm basically not done with my room. I just think I will never actually be done with it... I think a person's room should grow and consistently change with the one that inhibits it, dontcha think?

If you really think about it, the bedroom is where all the important things happen. It's where you can rest your tired body, where you can enjoy the solitude whenever you feel like you need it; like a safe haven and then it's the place where you can (LOL) re-create life *snickers* yeah, I'm gonna go there! Hahaha~ It's where you can be with another person intimately :) YUUUP!

I mean, the things you have in your room sort of symbolises the person that you are... characteristic-wise? I mean, you can't forever have power rangers bed sheet or like winnie the pooh plush toys right? It's just.... weird.

When I get a husband, the walls of my room would not have flowers on it... and perhaps the colours would be changed to something a little more neutral :p I have totally digressed from the word 'polaroid' haven't I? HEEHEE. woops!

Something for JWalkerz :)

This is such a cool speed painting by a deviantartist! I came across the YT video of him/her painting it.

BUT I HAVE TO SAY, this other deviantart person is better: DEEKAY. I love his work~ he does really awesome paintings of people! he did two of jay so far. HEHEHEHE... I love his concept of making them come alive towards the end. SO AWESOME! He's a korean living in NY.

this is the second one :D

AAAAANNND this is of that one hottie badass member from BIG BANG! heheheh it's TOP! :D

Another one...

Good morning, I haven't blogged in a while... This morning feels slow. I feel like I can share a lot of things when I'm in this sort of condition. Feeling slightly unhinged but most of all I'm-- dare I say it? Quite "emo".

Well I won't say I'm feeling emo per se, more like... I'm a little out of tune with my emotions and with the things around me. Like I can't make heads or tails of anything; as if I'm at sixes and sevens with my feelings. So I try to make it up by being very decisive about everything else, which kinda resulted in me acting somewhat "rushed" and bossy at times. Although! It has helped my shopping skills tremendously... Eheh. I've shopped more efficiently this past month-- not that that's a good thing either. -_-);

So like, I know I'm completely over my ex. Even if I truly did love him, I never want to see his face again. EVER. Because I once heard someone say "two people that broke up can never be friends again, if they are; theyre probably still in love or they never were to begin with." for me I know it's definitely the former because I was a total mess after the break up. I went a little crazy for about a week or so... It completely changed me...

Which brings me to the point of it all... I haven't been able to feel things "freely" for a certain someone~ I think I recently developed feelings for him but ehhh~ it's not working! It makes me sad, that I can't feel how I used to feel whenever I like a guy. I think I'm damaged or something~ or perhaps I've become scared of wanting to have such feelings for anyone. So I seem to always want to suppress it. But really, I think I like this one guy. But like I'm doing it in secret cause I don't think I'm ready to admit to him or well myself even. Hahahahaha... Hmmm~ I never used to be like this. Cheh~ I don't even like flirting anymore. Wtf.

And Ive had a couple of guys wanting to get to know me... But I totally didn't like them nor did I like their attention... I used to just layman and see if maybe I'd give them a chance but ani macam I turn them down flat. Like... Boo. So I have this newly developed mechanism where I escape to the deluded world~ lol. I just push away thought of real (attainable) guys and begin to just gawk at cute Korean guys, especially jay park and lee min ho. The cute actor. Lol~ it's really pathetic.

I like someone and I'm happy to like him in secret. If I could just be there for him like how I always am with the guys I like then I'd be happy... That is if I could actually do such a thing. If I can just come to care for him completely, like all the butterflies, heart thumping and the suppress squeals and the feeling of wanting to protect and care for him. Once that happens, I'll let him go and can finally feel that im not dead inside. Funny thing, I wasn't aware I was falling till something totally obvious happened~ lol. Gosh I'm so out of the whole liking process thingies.

More things to share.. :3

*wink* lol! I thought I'd do the whole "ten facts" thing again. Leggo~ x)

#11: I am bilingual~ I want to be trilingual! I used to know bits of Japanese, but my interest in it died along with my lack of enthusiasm in watching Japanese shows. Now I feel like learning Korean (I have my reasons :p)

#12: I have four scars on my body: 2 from operations, 1 from a car accident and 1 from a freak accident at home x) I'm so hardcore! :P

#13: My taste in just about everything in life has variations! It's like I'm a total rojak. In food, in music, in men, in friends, in fashion/style... Yeah; variety is the spice of life x)

#14: I have a short attention span. I get distracted easily basically... I guess that's why at times I tend to be so random or I kind of space out.

#15: I am fascinated by eyes~ I don't care if you're a guy or girl... I just love looking at eyes, the different shapes and sizes and colours... I have an eye fetish hohoho

#16: I don't know how to ride a bicycle but I've ridden a motorcycle! LOL, what a way to skip a step eh? I know, I'm just awesome like that~

#17: I cook/bake anything or clean whatever I can whenever I feel stressed out, guilty or nervous about something.

#18: The more you tell me to do something, the more I dislike doing it. If someone forces me to do something... I just don't like it. I suppose it's a habit from when I was a kid. *shrug* =/

#19: I have the most sucky timing ever! I SERIOUSLY DO. Lol... I never get it right.

#20: I hate it when people have a problem with the fact that I talk in English more than I do in Malay... I was just brought up that way, it's not a fake act of trying to be something I'm not okay? D: So stop judging me and just sod off. But, I'm trying to talk melayu more nowadays... since people are being such asses about how I am. LOL.