Quality Time.

So... having gone out with him, yesterday and earlier today has made me realised how much I've missed his physical presence T_____T

I was like suffering from what I call "oh-em-gee-I-can-be-in-his-arms-again-syndrome"!! No really, I was like LOVING every minute of it. Like le sigh~ his arms... his hands... just hugging his form was like *sniff* missed it so much. Can't blame me for wanting to spend time with him all the time... I mean, we've been apart for roughly one year. A YEAR. that's like 12 months, 360+ days and what the shit man... how many hours and minutes are there in a year? A lot is all I can say. And I only spend like~ Oh I don't knowww~ roughly on average 5 hours with him, whenever we meet up? See how puny that figure seems next to the figures I've mentioned ealier? D:

You know what I have? I have an eternity worth of love to give to him. Lol wtf. Here are a couple of pictures we took of eachother~ :p Mostly candid X) but surprisingly turned out pretty nice :O I guess everything looks better when you're all happy and in love... ♥ ♥

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA okay, that was a gag-worthy comment, I is sorry to have offended you. hehe...

(in any case though, it's true :p haha) ♥

Hmmm.. was browsing through what very little picture I took of myself/everyone during my stay in the UK. I found a nice one of me with this lovely lovely top... :3

aaahh.. okay. I'm in a good mood for now :p

Technology...

Good Morning! Today's an exciting day :) I'm up early. hehehe... Meeting up with him :D I'm happy happy happy!

So... I think I'm sort of addicted to electronic goods. I'm constantly surrounded by anything related to technology; mostly in the "electronic goods" sense. Technology is basically something that includes the use of machinery or equipment that's been developed to make things easier.

So, here I ask, is it really that bad to be dependent on technology or those e-goods? I mean, I don't think so, but maybe that could be because I've gotten used to a consistent standard of living or way of life. I may not have the best of things, but they're good enough :p

Here are some 'machinery' or 'equipment' of technology that I find quite essential, well actually I find that having purchased them wasn't a bad decision, at all.

an okay camera? check! ✔

- I got a 13.6mp camera which I bought like... uhmmm 2 years ago? It's not state of the art camera with all that zooming shit, I mean a professional photog would seriously think of it as shit, but I'm a point and shoot type of person. I take pictures of everything and at least the quality aint shit if it aint the best.

an entertaining game console? check! ✔

- I was given a PS3 for my birthday :D I'm not an avid gamer, but I love gaming nonetheless.. Who can deny the awesomeness of sony's awesome ps3 game console? :P I'm a proud owner of one :) find myself quite lucky

a working desktop? check! ✔

- Though it may be slightly outdated, but good enough, I can print my work cause it has a printer :p Which makes me

a non-obsolete laptop? check! ✔

- Well it might be slightly dated NOW, but back when I bought my macbook pro, it was quite awesome :p

a good enough phone? check! ✔

- I bought the iPhone 3GS earlier this year? it's a smartphone and I never regretted buying it cause well, the only thing why I think it's cool it's cause I love all the available applications~

a good working car? double check! ✔ ✔

- well, I got a Mazda 2 already, ever since I was 16 and then my parents bought me a Lexus SC430.... though it was not really MY choice -____-); BUT, who gets a Lexus without asking for it right? lol. I'm actually more of a Mazda person... but hokaaii :D

I have handheld portable games and well... I pretty much think that I'm quite "fortunate" ROFLMAO. Okay inside family joke :p hehehehe... *ahem* But seriously, awesome that I even own these things. Things aren't too shabby for me :)

Although, I have to say, my hi-fi/stereo is pretty uhmmm old. I have one but nehh... I need to find something better. New room calls for new things!! :D

Maybe by the end of first semester, I'll buy an awesome TV for my room~! :D ho yeah! Put my PS3 in my room tarus... nyahahahaha~ I really want a TV... Something pretty, cause my parents are giving me like... a 37" hdtv... but it's Phillips... and yeah. Again, not really my choice? D: But I'd rather not complain now... since like, they're giving it to me? So I take whatever they give :3 I'll just buy something really good for myself with my own money.

Maybe during my final year, I'll buy my own desktop that's up-to-date. Something fast enough so that I can play sims3 or (hopefully, with the will of God) in the future, sims4! :D teehee~

Amal's day.

So, my cousin's birthday was roughly like a week ago, the 22nd~

But like yesterday, she and I had our own little celebration :) We just had sushi - my treat, cruised around for a bit and then grabbed drinks and then hung out at my place for a while. Then I got bored and started plucking her eyebrows and putting makeup on her hehehe :p she looks different, even my boyfriend said so! It's pretty interesting what make up can do to you O_O kan kan?

Anyways, considering that yesterday was like one heck of a memorable day. Get this, we never like, had sushi together before! hahahahaha I knowww riiight what the hell~ and the fact that yesterday she wore make up which is like kind of a big deal, cause she doesn't usually have like a full face make up on.

We vained... and made faces. Lol.

Interior Designing

Hi, if you follow me on twitter: nissinis (that's the link, right there) you'd know that I've been busy designing the interiors of bedrooms for my sister, my parents and for myself.

The task is pretty simple isn't it? I find that it's neat that they want me to design their rooms :3 I am honoured! because you see, if always had a keen interest in interior decorating, I love building houses, rearranging and refurbishing furniture, mix-and-matching things... (one of the reasons why I love playing the sims expansion pack so much) I never had the chance to do it with my rooms. I say roomS because all my life, I've already had two bedrooms in this samehouse-- we keep renovating bah =_=); if I move now, this next room would be my third room~! :D

I guess they're just trying to indulge me in designing because I've never taken the path to which would lead me to that career, because I stay away from all things mathematical all this time (ironic that I'm taking business, I know) They know I love designing-- I imagine a lot in my head, so yeah. Hahaha~ I'm a TERRIBLE drawer though ahahah wth X) But it's decent enough!

I don't use pencil to draw because-- I have no idea why I don't actually, I used colour pencils instead... hahaha but you know despite using colours, I don't colour properly... =/ I just realised that I was never good at colouring T__T lol. I'm just good at picking materials and matching things and picturing it all in my head. HAA. lame -_-)

Care to look at my *ahem* adequately drawn and poorly shaded/coloured sketches? MAYBE, once everything is completed. I'll show you how they look with the right colour/materials, in real-life yes? :3 see how the end product looks like :D I'd want to see if they look just as good as how I picture it in my head.

Though I have to admit, it was not all really to my taste cause they insisted I made it simple and my parents wanted me to redesign the whole thing after they changed their mind about their concept *sigh* I don't mind~ but lol, it's funny I really feel like I was hired by the three of them to draw up these sketches. I consult them and they tell me what they want and the concept and I suggest a few things and bring a few sketches to them till they like it and wahh~ it's just exciting~ I'm freelancing *snorts* yeah~ but it's fun to pretend :P

However, sometimes I get kind of tired... I keep making designs and they go "Ohhh but that's not practical, it's pretty but think of how it'll collect dust and stuff" :( I was meant to make things looks pretty! not to be practical *sobs* oh well, so I'm trying my best to be practical with how I design things; the goal is to utilize the space to it's utmost potential and that the design would enable the upkeep to be easy.

My concept would be white on white and glass/mirrors all over. White furniture - that has got mirrors and glass in it's design, on (sort of) white laminated floors... One dark deep purple/lavender for the feature wall with perhaps white horizontal stripes or a silhouette of "something" painted. I will have tons of fun decorating my room :D hehe heh...

I'll post up pics of my sketches tomorrow perhaps :) I haven't taken a picture of them yet :p

If I was older and had like a husband or maybe a bigger room... I'd have made my room sport a more classic theme :) like this...

BUT ALAS, things aren't like that :(

what to expect when expecting.

SURPRISEE~!! I'm Pregnant!!

HAHAHAHAH... okay not funny :P

I've always wondered...

Oh before that, sorry for not updating on a regular basis. I've been pretty much busy trying not to eat, doing my work out and being out of the country and hmm... well pretty much doing errands. Juggling these many things isn't a walk in the park. I figure that once I bring my butt back to the Uni life, I'll be even more... strung. x)

Believe it or not, I have yet to make time for my lessons. It's getting pretty annoying how I don't have fixed times to go about doing them. I don't like that it's not done in consecutive days-- puts me off really. But whatever, I'm doing my best nonetheless.

Anyways... I've always wondered how it'll be like to give birth. My boyfriend and I were talking about... families and family issues and then one thing lead to another, then we talked babies and about having them...

So with that little opening, I somehow revealed like a "not-so-big-of-a-deal" secret :P since my boyfie's the first to know about it just now, I suppose it won't hurt to say that I have morbid thoughts about giving birth.

HEE...HEE...

well... I've always had a somewhat slight fear about it. Like how you need to be extra careful prior to giving birth when you are with child and how there's like (even if it's just) a small possibility of a mother dying as she gives birth.

As poetic that might seem; you know, your own life for the new life of your baby-- I can't help but think how scary it is. I hope I'm not scaring all those potential mother-to-be(s) hehe...

I'm being silly, one of my ludicrous notions :p I just think too much about unnecessary things. My boyfriend agreed and he reassured me that the possibility is very slim. But nyeeeh... Whatever the case, I still believe that having a tiny little heartbeat in your womb is something that's worthwhile.

Have you ever thought about it though? Like seriously thought about it? How big of a deal it is to have your mother? The risk she puts herself in every single time she gets pregnant? LIKE SERIOUSLY?? she COULD have died, by bringing you in back then-- the possibility always LINGERS okay? But ahhh... tawakkal saja.

So here, take the time to appreciate your mother, no matter how unfair she might seem to you right now... or how outrageous her requests might seem to your raging teen hormones. LOL. I like saying that, because it's true, Hormones -- not just in teens -- makes you frickin' irrational and stupid :p

You know what, go kiss your mother on the cheek right now! thank her for bringing you into this world and for all the burden she carried on her back, all on your behalf and also, thank her for not dying... because imagine being motherless...? That's too painful, that's a big unpleasant ordeal you know, it's more painful and damaging than you could have imagined. Thank her for being your mom... :D

I love you Hasnah, my beautiful mommeh :3 ♥ ♥

You and daddy gave me pretty genes. hahahaha :p and not to mention smart genes and hmmm... blame my mom for me being a sappy/sensitive cry baby :p

I love that top... because I just do. ahahahaha :p Bought it from zara :3

I love that top too and and and not to mention my baby boy *smothers him with a tight hug* teehee ♥ I love youuuuu izul.

Ima kiss him now. or well, imagine to do it... hahaha... I have not met him yet. like GRRR. I tahan this long already =( *sigh*

what's eating me.

I'm scared to face another day, cause the fear in me just won't go away, in an instance you were gone

...and now I'm scared.