Little Miss "A Bit of Everything" ♥: what to expect when expecting.

SURPRISEE~!! I'm Pregnant!!

HAHAHAHAH... okay not funny :P

I've always wondered...

Oh before that, sorry for not updating on a regular basis. I've been pretty much busy trying not to eat, doing my work out and being out of the country and hmm... well pretty much doing errands. Juggling these many things isn't a walk in the park. I figure that once I bring my butt back to the Uni life, I'll be even more... strung. x)

Believe it or not, I have yet to make time for my lessons. It's getting pretty annoying how I don't have fixed times to go about doing them. I don't like that it's not done in consecutive days-- puts me off really. But whatever, I'm doing my best nonetheless.

Anyways... I've always wondered how it'll be like to give birth. My boyfriend and I were talking about... families and family issues and then one thing lead to another, then we talked babies and about having them...

So with that little opening, I somehow revealed like a "not-so-big-of-a-deal" secret :P since my boyfie's the first to know about it just now, I suppose it won't hurt to say that I have morbid thoughts about giving birth.

HEE...HEE...

well... I've always had a somewhat slight fear about it. Like how you need to be extra careful prior to giving birth when you are with child and how there's like (even if it's just) a small possibility of a mother dying as she gives birth.

As poetic that might seem; you know, your own life for the new life of your baby-- I can't help but think how scary it is. I hope I'm not scaring all those potential mother-to-be(s) hehe...

I'm being silly, one of my ludicrous notions :p I just think too much about unnecessary things. My boyfriend agreed and he reassured me that the possibility is very slim. But nyeeeh... Whatever the case, I still believe that having a tiny little heartbeat in your womb is something that's worthwhile.

Have you ever thought about it though? Like seriously thought about it? How big of a deal it is to have your mother? The risk she puts herself in every single time she gets pregnant? LIKE SERIOUSLY?? she COULD have died, by bringing you in back then-- the possibility always LINGERS okay? But ahhh... tawakkal saja.

So here, take the time to appreciate your mother, no matter how unfair she might seem to you right now... or how outrageous her requests might seem to your raging teen hormones. LOL. I like saying that, because it's true, Hormones -- not just in teens -- makes you frickin' irrational and stupid :p

You know what, go kiss your mother on the cheek right now! thank her for bringing you into this world and for all the burden she carried on her back, all on your behalf and also, thank her for not dying... because imagine being motherless...? That's too painful, that's a big unpleasant ordeal you know, it's more painful and damaging than you could have imagined. Thank her for being your mom... :D

I love you Hasnah, my beautiful mommeh :3 ♥ ♥

You and daddy gave me pretty genes. hahahaha :p and not to mention smart genes and hmmm... blame my mom for me being a sappy/sensitive cry baby :p