Sexy.

"I'm Lexi, like... Sexy~!!"

IKR, totally random. Just a phrase from ugly betty. totally stuck to me for some very odd odd odddd reason *shrugs* bite me. HARD.... on the ass, for my candidness.

Here's an irksome or rather tiresome theory. People's take on sexy. SO what's sexy? what defines sexy or being sexy or looking sexy or well being the 'sex'. I just naturally assume that's another form of the sexy word sexy. hehehe... hope that confused you a bit :p In all honesty, labeling things is already tiring and putting the word "sexy" to something is even MORE tiresome. Like, the definition is soooo overused and yet, there isn't an exact mono way of defining in. NO! actually WORDS are tiring. why the fuck do we have to even use them?

BLAH! okay... anyways, back to what I was saying.

Let's be technical with it first, what "defines" sexy? By definition of the dictionary... Here's what the word means:

sex·y (sĕkˈsē)

adjective sexier sex·i·er, sexiest sex·i·est

1. Arousing or tending to arouse sexual desire or interest.
2. Slang Highly appealing or interesting; attractive: “The recruiting brochures are getting sexier” (Jack R. Wentworth).

Heh... That's pretty basic stuff right there. Now, here's to a much wider scope of definition. Things can never BE more complex in today's modern world :p It's cause we peeps from the modern era are so coo' like that~ *snorts* x) Before I continue any further, I'd like to say that *ahem* this is a minor POV of one teeny tiny person :p i.e. moi~ hehehe, but with close references to the other girls I hang out with.

Aside from the ALREADY complexity of how describing people's personality-- not just looks as sexy is already a trifle confusing and full of variations.

I know for a fact that there are people who find guys that are loud-mouthed and well, crude-ish and aggressive and sooo full of himself and assertive, as sexy. I just find that overbearing.

Then there are girls who find a man who has a huge intellectual capacity but is so down to earth about it as being sexy. To me, that's cool and all, but iunno~ kinda boring.

My kind of sexy is sort of a mix of both, with a tinge of exuding confidence. Someone who can strike up a conversation; both intellectual and pretty much random or plain stupid/humorous-- with just about aaaanyonee~ :) Though sometimes, the degree of confidence I like in a guy combined with his playfulness maaaay sometimes lean towards the cocky side. which might be a tad aggravating for some girls, but I find adorable! X) pasal durang kambang and its so cali~ HAHAHAHA.


As for looking sexy? Hmmm...

I know that some women find the unshaven tousled, unmade bed-hair look sexy. Some like guys with an expression of coolness -- or well hard expressions with a "I'm-a-better-class-of-itinerant" look attractive. Well I find some of those sexy, depends on the guy, if he can carry that look well then okay yeah, hubba-hubba that totally works for youuu baby~ lol.

I like guys who brood. weird huh? I like it if they're all serious looking around everyone~ or just like, most of the time if he isn't talking lol. Because it makes his smile all the more heart-warming! when he flashes those pearly whites at me... like *melts* HEEHEE ♥

While others find themselves attracted to the challenge of a guy's character sexy, like wanting to make a bad boy good. Lol. Or something like that~ to me that's a 'sexy' situation. Ahhh~ I'm beginning to lose sight of what I'm doing.

*cricket sounds*


Hmmmm... sometimes I wonder if I have ADD. heheeheheh.. whoops! I think I'm just tired... what the hell was I thinking blogging about this so early in the morning? LOL! Goodbye!

And farewell thee~~ fair month of february~

The lil darling~

Whenever I look at my nieces or nephew I think of childhood memories. CHILDHOOD; our days of purity and innocence- those blissful days of our lives, when mistakes were forgiven, because we were still learning how to perceive the world and the people in it :) I find that a child's upbringing affects a shitload of how that child will turn out~ It's really frightening isn't it what we all will go through one day? Because how we bring up our child, and how their childhood turns out will reflect greatly on their character~

But I seriously like how my sister raised my niece. She's a good mom, well on most parts, there are some parts where I find it to be unnecessary but my sister's done an awesome job with Aysya :D Anyways, my old love for poetry is resurfacing when I talk about things like this. Here's one of the poems I like, my collection of poetry from other poets. :p not my own okay? lol. It's to do with childhood. I forgot to copy the title down on my book though :/

Some people have a childhood garden
Filled with green and growing things
Some people have a childhood garden
Filled with purple peonies
Mine is sere
Throughout the year
Nothing grows here

Some people have a childhood rainbow
A sea of colors all aglow
Some people have a childhood rainbow
Red to violet in a row
Mine is gray
Bow of clay
Without a ray

Some people have a childhood temple
Covered with a million treasured dreams
Some people have a childhood temple
A sunny Wat of Gods and kings
Mine is plain
Squats in the rain
Functional 'n sane

Where childhood memories abound
Life flows vividly around
Where childhood memories have fled
Hearts lie dead

By Tim Bovee

Sad isn't it? :( *sigh* well alhamdulillah my childhood's above average :p I mean there are certain things I wish didn't happen but whatever x)

My skillsss :p

I have mad interior designing skills. LOL jk jk~ but yeah, I can design stuff :) it's FUUUNN :D I should hone this slight gift I have... hahaha and turn it into something awesome possum! x)


Here's one of the things that I designed ;) There's just something satisfying with seeing the whole thing being put together in real-life :) I'm a tad bit proud of myself. That I can envision things.

This was the first draft of my drawings, with minor verbal adjustments later on made to improve it; because as we all know, making something nice takes time and progressive planning, besides ideas come naturally at the oddest moments.



(oh woops, it's upside down :p)
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AND THEN~ here is how it looks like when "off paper" :D





Well, the whole thing is still incomplete though, but yeah~ feels kinda awesome for me every time I look at it :) Because I know I was the one who envisioned it. These are my sister's built-in furniture that she asked me to draw up and design by the way :)

I might post up the end product, because I think I'm going to help my sister decorate it and stuff. I am so excited for herrrrr and the new room! heheheh... JUST IMAGINE how excited I'll be for my own room nanti! x) huahauahauhaa...

yeah... pity that they haven't even started on my room =/ No matter...

Good things comes to those who wait....
(no matter how impatiently I've waited for it)

Hehehehe okay, well, until next time!

I gots a haircut :3

Awesome Possum yes? :p hehehehe

*grumble*

I am so grumpy as of late...



Cute picture huh? lol.

For some reason, I look at this picture and I see a couple that's going through a fight :p see the black cat is the male cat cause he's got a lil patch of moustache :P hahahah and the grey stripey cat is the chick cat menjaling the dude cat cause he was being mean! hehehe.. Look how prettily she's putting her paws neatly folded in front of her x) so cute.

small rant

I honestly get disgusted when I see people googling profane, perverted and mundane things online and they end up on my site-- THIS SITE. It's mind boggling that without fail, I would have AT LEAST one search hit each month that's of this nature... kenapakan tu? =__=);

I'm also beginning to feel like Faizul is getting too busy for me, though in reality it might not be a bad thing-- I mean, it's not really my place to feel like this because I know he does make time if he can. I just want to prattle on with my petty feelings and see if this leads me to a good place. Evidently, it isn't doing much good... I miss him. I really miss him. To the point of where I want to just gnaw on a random guy and mold his face to look like my baby whilst ghastly gnawing and the poor fellow. EEEEHH~!!! I do not want to turn to a Psycho GF okay? But he likes acting like this... he keeps me on my toes and makes certain things a mystery so I'll be hooked on him. THING IS KAN, he has to let up once in a while AND for a longer period of time nowadays because I just get sooooo... lonely.

I'm trying to be positive for the new year, so far though? Not going well... Y____Y please please please God, jangan jadikan aku org yang suka murkha with the dunia around me. ehhhh...

Buduh facebook ani eh! BUDUH! I hate it now.... hate youuuu for connecting people!! sometimes I want certain people to NOT BE CONNECTED to eachother. *glares angrily* Do not kick me when I'm down! Don't suddenly show me that one person that I dislike being so good friends with someone I don't like OR show me that my goodfriend is suddenly friends with a stupid ex boyfriend of mine AND don't show me what my boyfriend is up to! Though the last one is hardly a recurring thing... He's like so MIA :'(


SOMETIMES SOME THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNTOUCHED, UNTURNED, UNKNOWN, UNSEEN and UNSAID!



Oh and p/s, I "unfollowed" you because you're a vapid-sounding bitch. You stuck up snob and your need to attach a price to everyone and everything! Screwwww youuu laa!

*ahem* sorry that I sound angry all of a sudden, I went to twitter and facebook and it made me angry.

Red Lips

Is it wrong of me to think that the red lipstick made my lips look sexy? hahahaha...


I think I might jussssst start wearing darker shades of lipstick. Anyways! my hair is so bloody long now~ O_O makes me wonder if I should cut it short soon....


.... yeah like this short?

How about that huh? I had short hair like... 3 years ago. hahaha... excuse the retarded expression! I was in one of my silly spells :p