Tonight is Random.

I had a sleepover yesterday :) Watched movies, played games, went to grocery shop for ourselves and then baked cuppy cakes! I have lots of pictures... lol and due to having lots of pictures is what makes me think I'll postpone writing out that post~ x)

Anyways, I just wanted to say how random tonight is. I'm currently chatting with my cousin cookie. LOL. Yeah, coco~ I don't know how this happened but I'm bullying her about liking Jiyong a.k.a. G-Dragon from Big Bang! x) hahahahaha it's cute that because of this, her lil sister... who is 9 years old; totally likes me.

She noticed that I gave Coco the nickname 'Cookie' and she so cutely asked for one too~ since her hair is totally long and you could just totally eat her up cause she's so cute and adorable I called her 'Buttercup' :D SO yes, Stacia is now called BUTTERCUP!

And she said since my name is Nyss. She's calling me Nessie like the Lochness Monster! XD OMG she's the most imaginative little girl ever, that nickname is SO RUGGED! D: I instantly loved it... She says it's cause I bully coco~ she got inspired by that x) freaking awesome. Then we began randomly calling eachother by our nicknames and everything~

Thought I'd just blog about it since I find it quite funny. I'm currently waiting for her to finish up her fanfic :p and at the same time I'm writing out my own short story for the other blog. Have any of you checked it out? :O You should~ lol, just to support me x) haa...

Okay, somehow after checking out countless Korean Websites, my laptop's now infected. What the fuxk? Porn sites and stupid viagra-buying sites keep popping up! SERIOUSLY? SEERIOUSLY? why the hell did this get triggered just cause I was looking for news on Jay Park? UGH!

I just got mad pissed or well... annoyed. =__=);

Karak

Soooo... I forgot to mention the other day, like uhmmm... 2 or 3 days ago, I watched a Malay Horror Movie~!! :D If you know me well enough, you'd know I rarely watch Malay Movies, especially if it's the Malaysian-Malays... I find that I watch Indonesian-Malays more... HEEHEE. x) I have no idea why I'm wired like this... But anyways, I thought it wouldn't be so bad to watch since it's a KRU Production. They're quite good I think... but then again, not entirely sure.

Anyhoo~!!

The movie I watched was called "Karaʞ" (heehehe... I found a flipped K! lolz) at first I was questioning the title of the movie... Karak? as in... the Bruneian Malay word? or like... what is that? Does the Malaysian Malay also have the word 'karak' in their dictionary? So I was asking my friends (faie and zatie) what they thought~ LOL, you should have listened to us, we were so bullshitting it man~ we're coming with a bunch of explanation and then the movie started...

Turns out Karak is the name of a place~ HEWHEWHEW. I give the movie a... 6.5 out of 10. That's me being quite generous... I don't really like the genre I watched; so that's pretty awesome x) I mean I love horrors... but uhmmm yeah~

The thing about Malaysian movies I noticed... they would always have at least ONE girl who is so bloody girly and supposedly 'modern', she would talk in English and be all bimbotic. =_=); really? Like reaaally? that's a total cliche, find it sooo bleh, and here in this movie, there's that one girl again. Freaking annoying cause she keeps putting on the same lipstick and pouting her freaking lips. =___=); then upon hearing/remembering the recent death of her brother, she stops and then cries for a bit, then goes back to pouting.

Seriously vapid and so awkwarrrd~ honestly though, if y'all want to say that's her way of dealing with her pain then that's just... well kudos to her for finding such an 'awesome' way (please detect sarcasm) of dealing with her grief.

I just wish they would stop portraying girls like that to not be so vapid and self-absorbed and rude. Do they think being 'modernised' equals to being a rude ass mo fo or something? *rolls eyes* And, it's like a negative stigma being made to girls who talk in English. *terasa* lol inda pulang~ I know I'm better =p

Anyways, from the picture above, three guesses to which of the two girls is the vapid, bimbotic, english-speaking one.

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Just spot the one who still looks like she's posing even when in 'fear' LOL. And is the one with the very obvious push up bra. Thus, quite perky boobies ;) HAHAHAHA you can so tell I'm really annoyed by her~ x) I'm so sorry to the actress who had to play such an annoying character~ but yeah. wtf.

a curious case.

Every single day... I would wake up hoping that this would be the day when something EPIC happens in my life. But it never seems to materialize. Maybe it's because each day lived is basically a repeat of all the days of yesteryears. Nothing new. Just...nyeh~

Then this morning, something happened. The most curious thing occurred, I think I had an epiphany of some sort.

You know that one time, when you think you're awake and you sort of are, but not quite? That's the moment in time where you're dazed and your head seems like it's afloat in space. It feels like if you were to close your eyes for just a second, you'd drift back into a deep slumber. Your head feels heavy and you don't feel like you're quite ready to stir yourself awake?

To be honest, I love it when I'm in this state; it feels like reality is mixed with your subconscious state of mind - your dreams basically. So maybe I was dreaming it, but it felt real... I thought I saw my grand dad holding me in his arms, I was a baby of course-- I don't think I remember how he looks like since he passed away when I was barely a year old. But somehow this time, I knew it was him. Is that weird? He just sat there on the chair across from where I lay down... I know I may have supposed to have been kind of freaked out, but it felt quite calming or maybe that was just the drowsiness kicking in and then I slowly I closed my eyes.

I was happy...

"UKiss-stalking"

Hello thereeeee~ So everyone knows how much I'm currently into this perfectly (good looking) hardworking young man, who has come a loooong way from his days as the leader of 2PM (a korean idol group).

He looks so good in white shirts~ lol and pink ones too... and and okay, he just really looks good! hehehe~ But pink makes him look utterly *squeals* nothing like a bad boy wearing pink~ TEEHEE!

So you see, I've been obsessively stalking his twitter account! Please follow him @JAYBUMAOM ! He needs all the support he can get ♥ Anyway, I've realised he tweets back and forth with another member of an idol group, Soo Hyun of U-Kiss~ x)

Being the curious cat that I am I started following him too and he posts up pictures of Jay from time to time. He became an instant favourite! XD HAHAHAHAHA. Gosh, how easy am I? kidding~ I like that they're friends and all. So I followed Soo Hyun and then Kevin Woo cause he's another Korean guy who lived in the US, he's from San Fran~! :D

I'm not a U-Kiss fan per se, but I thought I'll just show them off a little~ just cause they treat Jay so nicely ;3 heehee~

Uhmm... yeah, the appearance they have or are asked to portray..? Not quite my type.

still a little too pretty and cutesy for my taste but but... that at the middle in pink has potential! XD hohoho.

BUT ANYHOO, Soo Hyun is the guy on the far right at the back and Kevin Woo is the guy right infront of him with the white shirt and coloured stripes :D

OMFG!

I am going to go on a trip to "wishful thinking" land and hope with all my heart, that Jay Park checked my blog! :D *cries of happiness at own delusional thought*

Do you see that? LOL. It's from Seoul, Korea!! and it came from my twitter account ;D what other Korean guy do I tweet to in Korea? LOL. NO ONE EXCEPT FOR JAAAAY PAARRRRK! :D *giggles happily* I post up my blog link on my twitter profile you see~ hehehe... Hmmm...

I'm going to pretend it's him. Yup... let's be happy with that thought for just one day~ ahahhaahaa pathetic =p I was so happy I just had to take a screenshot of my tracker while I was checking it our from my iPhone~ x)

ON A SIDE NOTE,

please visit this link: http://freedom-within-limits.blogspot.com

I've posted up two stories up there so far :) Have a go at reading it~ please and thank you! ;D

Day in and Day out :)

This post would just be more of just the pictures I've taken so far. hehehe :) Not because I find that I take good pictures x)

I just don't feel like saying much this time 'round. I'm busy with my shorts a.k.a. short stories~ Yeah, remember that thing I mentioned earlier on about Wafi having a lil preposition for me? I find that I'm giving a lot of thought in it O_O); I think I subconsciously miss writing really simple casual love stories like I did back when I was in primary and in my early secondary school years. HEHE. Oh well...

Zatie came over the other day and we watched two movies x) Both were equally filled with a chockful of sexual humor which got me squealing and screaming cause I was so grossed out. *shudders* (the movies were: "Deuce Bigalow Eurpean gigolo" and "the comebacks") I may like sexual humor, I don't mind it, but sometimes if it gets a little too much or too visual I tend to cringe! xD oh lordd~ some of them were too much, sick eh siiiiiccccckkk!! D:

So after that we wanted to play monopoly.

And then I played with her face... HAHAHAHAHA yes, I put make up on her x) hewhewhew~

Then the other day, I went jogging with Liana at JPMCs little path / track at the back lol. We went sightseeing as well and collected seashells~!! XD

The pictures turned out pretty nice though~ kan kan? Hehehe... despite it only being my my iPhone's camera x)

Pictures picture pic

D'Awwwww~ It's Baby Jay~!! XD lol. what a fat chubby baby *huggles* Omooo~ kiyooot eee~!!

Him modeling for the denizen shoot :P That is one hot Asian guy in the middle right thurrr~ the others just pale in comparison! HAHAHA biased much~

Picture of me wearing the first hairband/headband I bought in 8 years~ :O I think I'm going through a backward bending curve here people!

I'm having a 'mid life' crisis! LOL. I mean first I'm acting like a frickin' hormonal teeny bopper by going all crazy over some Korean Hottie (Jaaaay ♥ lol) and then I'm buying really childish girly things... but eh... I bought this before I was going crazy over Jay... Hmmm... OH LORD, point is, I should start growing up~!

Turning 21 this year so I should start acting like my age more x) hee...

stupid sales person.

Okay, at the risk of sounding like a snob, I'm just going to say what I want to say because it really bugs the hell out of me why some sales girl are such little hoity toity turds.

Surprisingly, Asian ones are relatively more rude than their Western counterparts. lol... (counterparts? wtf, I sound like I'm writing an essay.... ahahahahaha) Not saying you caucasian aren't rude and that only the asians are; there have been polite asians and quite rude caucasians~

So one of those shopping trips right, we go into this Dior shop to buy my mom a bottle of perfume, I think this was in Pavillion, KL. My brother was asking about the perfume and she just had this air about her like she was a fucking queen or something. She refused to even crack a smile and even responded in a curt manner-- like what the hell? *looks at her name tag* it just said : Sales Executive. Really, that's just a fancy way of saying you're a sales girl. =_=);

Barigali orang melayunya, inda sopan. Tebuat org putih karang tu cam staie "yes sir, no sir, sorry sir." My whole family-- minus me (I think LOL) get ticked off when people are disrespectful or when they serve you with a sourpuss face on. See, what's so bad about serving people with a smile? like this :D My brother gave her a piece of his mind and she looked so taken aback. Finally the chick stammered and voiced out a squeak of an apology.

Similar situations have happened in Singapore (Prada, Dior), UK (Burberry, Salvatore Ferragamo) and then KL (Dior, JC). They seriously need to step up their customer service, pissed off customers mean no pay for them okay? WHY CAN'T THEY GET THAT THROUGH THEIR THICK SKULLS?

I mean, just because they work at expensive stores they think they have a right to treat me like shit? =__=); I know I don't look like I earn anything and just wear jeans and a shirt and my hair's pretty much a mess (well no, it isn't that bad :p) hahahaha XD

I loved shopping at Tiffany's in London :) That girl was so friendly and kind~ loved her and also that man in Tod's~ he even made my mom buy this really awesome clutch despite her being adamant on not buying any more bags X) Oh but the LV people in Singapore were refreshingly sweet and funny.

But think of the money I could have spent in your stores if you only treated me nicely. You really don't have to go all out and treat your customers like royalty; just respond to them in a nice manner, smile, exchange pleasantries for a minute or two and just be helpful and don't tail behind them like they're about to steal something!

If I couldn't afford it, I wouldn't have gone into your store k? Sometimes I get so annoyed, I would like grab a shit load of little accessories or just anything that would total up to a lot of money... and then I'd be all *shoves stuff to sales person's face* "I'm taking all of this, write me up the receipt" LOL!

My dad hates it when I do this... he would look at me and go... "membazir, nda jua beguna tu." which roughly translates to "what a waste, bet you're not even going to use/need it." At which point I would look at him sheepishly, smile and slowly walk the opposite direction as to not get that piercing gaze of his :P

BUT EHH, sometimes I get so annoyed with myself that I have to go prove myself to these sales people and then I regret being all hot-headed like that, then I'm left to look at some really useless purchases... *gasps* I just realised something! Maybe it's one of their underhanded tactics to make people purchase shit x) lol... shiiiii.... oh well.

Point is, dear sales person, stop being such dixks and such bitxhes. Customers are always right and their existence and presence inside your store is invaluable as that would provide you all to keep up with your nasty cocaine habit, your shopping addiction or even to feed the mouths of your little kids or something! Please know that we are your source of income. kthnxbai.

I'm not belittling them or anything, I know that it's great to have you around, because you function as something that's suppose to be useful when one is to shop for things. However, if you don't perform accordingly, it just ticks people off. THANK GOD my patience does not wear thin so easily like it does for the majority of my family members.

My term break...

You know what, sometimes I think that I eat more than I can chew. LOL. I've been really busy with things that I have planned out for myself.

I get bored though because everyone seems to be busy bees on their own, so I tend to go do things alone *sniff* SO... been getting busy, but still bored. Everyone's all in hospitals... hehe... like three of my friends have people to take care of in hospitals. Then there are those who have to babysit, I do too sometimes though. And then there was a time when they went off to other countries when they were free, so like what in the world right? Why couldn't they have gone when I was away in KL? LOL.

One thing that I always suck at, is timing! SERIOUSLY! hahaha with aaaaaanyonee at all~ I would always always~ ALWAYS, without a doubt catch them at a bad time or I do things at the most inconvenient of times or what not. I just have poor timing.

So anyways, let me count the things that I've been doing~ HMMM... I go jogging, I go hiking, doing a bit of aerobics here and there and then I'm also currently repainting my room because I just feel like it's not pretty enough :p Oh and I'm also trying to find ways to sell this piece of land I've been entrusted to sell off... speaking of which, is anyone interested? Because if not, I'll have to do another tactic where I write up a friggin' proposal so that I can get interested investors or something. LOL.

THEN I'm getting myself involved in Wafi's little plan on this website he's doing :) Though I'm thankful he asked me, because I have something interesting to do, it still pressures me a little because I find that I'm not good enough. I write only when I feel like it... Oh yeah, I forgot that I haven't mentioned what it was, it's to post up short stories on a weekly basis; although, the website hasn't quite officially started off yet but I just like putting an initiative to get ready and be early about it when it comes to things like these heehee~

http://www.freedom-within-limits.blogspot.com

I recycled one of my old blog's address :) and turned it into the designated site to go to for the short stories I've written. Funny how I agreed to do this when my own novel is not even going all that smoothly (the moonlit scars one) :p BUT yes, do check that link out if you're interested, my way of writing there is much more relaxed compared to the 'voice' and style of writing in the novel one--I think la. I only posted up ONE story though! teehee! Another one would be posted up by end of this week and it'll be something entirely different ;D

Other than that I'm also designing more furniture....!! HEHEHEHE... I got a job for designing my friend's room :) I feel so awesome that I'm doing all this hehehehe... XD

BUT, I always find myself getting absolutely knackered, both mentally and physically... I just really want to go out and be in the company of others because I do find that I am getting pretty much bored of myself. HAHAHAHAHA....HAA.... *cries* it's really maddening this feeling of getting sick of yourself :P

I mean it's great to have all this and I do find that I have fun, but having company is much better isn't it? :) The fact that I have all these little projects to do and wanting MORE things to do, yet I always feeeeeeel friggin tired, it makes me think I can be way in over my head at times. Like seriously~ X) thus, why I think "I eat more than I can chew".

I want to go out, plan a BBQ party and just do nothing with everyone. By nothing I mean hang out randomly and have drinks lol. I miss everyone, at least school kept me busy... I just feel so bored not doing anything. Everyone in Brunei is so frickin' lazy nowadays, like frickin hell, no wonder I'm so out of shape -____-);

REMEMBER! I am awesome like a possum! lol. But no, I truly am~ :P

OH OH!!! I DREW SOMETHING WORTHY OF MENTION... mentioning..? Shii-- whatever! I DREW SOMETHING THAT I CAN'T WAIT TO SHARE IN THIS LITTLE SPACE OF MINE! ehehehheehhe.....

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TA-DAH~!!!

JAY (BUM) PARK from AOM :p

I am not one to draw well with my hands... using the mouse or stylus perhaps, but not so with hands and on a piece of paper X) BUT, I have to admit it didn't turn out so bad x) ehehehehe... I haven't drawn in years... finally picked up a pencil cause I was inspired and moved enough to draw something... well SOMEONE! ♥ JAY! Drawing used to be a passing hobby of mine when I was younger

Not even close to looking like the real thing though! XD Yeah this was what I was looking at x)

Such a sweetheart :D

It's almost here...

My ex boyfriend's birthday tomorrow... and you know what thought kept replaying in my head, over and over and over again?

Please burn it, please burn it, please burn it, please please please burn it...

Please make him burn that stupid reminder of my foolishness and optimism of our so-called "love".

The scrapbook I made for him. Those words I painstakingly put thought in...the effort, sweat and time I put into making it nice; they were meant for the person that I love, not someone that broke me apart bit by bit till there was nothing left.

I got really angry at myself for remembering his birthday. I know I thought of the scrapbook and wishing he'd get rid of it, but I thought of him nonetheless...

Let's hope he won't rob me of my belief in love, as he had robbed me of my youth. Imagine all those years I wasted on him, when all those times I could have found someone more deserving. *sigh* I wasted what seemed (but hopefully not) the best years of my life.

till next time :)

A.

Jaw line

To ME,

A guy should have a prominent jaw line, it has to be sharp and hard. I love a man with a strong jaw. But nothing too wide though... just nice... just as a way of showing that you're a manly guy. LOL.

I like stroking a guy's jawline. *snorts* I think I'm kinda weird. A strong set of jaw means a strong set of character. It makes them seem more pompous or stubborn... negative as that might sound, one should think of it as them having 'character' but the nice kind of pompous and stubborn...... Uhmm if that's even humanly possible x)

I love that Jay has a jawline~! TEEHEE ♥ ♥ ♥

I can never find anyone so perfect! LOL. I know you're kinda short Jay, but that doesn't matter, you're still taller than me ;D I'm only 164cm heehee.... He's too adorable. HEHEHHEHHEE... *squeals*

HORNY MEN.

OK, sorry, but... WHY OH WHY~~~ are there only sleaze bags who graduated from a douche-baggery academy available on the internet? Or do guys turn douchey and perverted once they step into the cyber world? O_O

So like... this came from my tracker (yea, my tracker cool like that) what's up with that man?

12 May, Thu, 10:19:52

adsl-76-204-45-170.dsl.lsan03.sbcglobal.net

Google Images: chubby slut

12 May, Thu, 17:36:58

203.82.95.73

Google Images: indonesian slut

LIKE WOW~ really? they google for sluts? HAHAHA. Uhmmmm wow okay... I always have a good laugh whenever I check my tracker XD The top one is from USA, the bottom from Malaysia

That aside, it finally dawned on me how degrading this is on my part........... Whenever people google something that has to do with sluts, they find my blog? a few weeks ago it was 'chubby chinese girl' (USA) and the week after it was 'chinese bruneian sluts' (EGYPT) LIKE REALLY?? ROFLMAO!! I find it interesting to know the preference or kinks or fetishes of each country is... LOL. good stuff~ good cheap entertainment for me whenever I feel down~

So yeah, I think I should change my profile intro part or something... it's so fricking embarrassing that people end up on my blog based on that search result XD

But oh god wth. I don't really care... =_= cause they're going to get disappointed everytime they click on this blog when all they see is pictures of a muscular man called Jay Park!! :D TEEHEE. Yeah, their reproductive organs would go limp from seeing that! LOL, how satisfying that would be to stop the perverts from getting turned on XD

Whet my appetite.

What's on the menu for today? I know the title post ostentatiously suggests that I would be talking about food or dishes, but no, it's just something I've been craving for...

For an appetizer; the iPad 2.

I've always wanted to own an iPad, a golden opportunity presented itself to me since I was in the UK when it was first launched there, I had the money to buy it and I had the temptation to purchase the fricking thing, but my sister convinced me otherwise... and the bloody bitchy thing is, she went and bought one for herself later on back in BRUNEI! LOL.

Though I know it wasn't her true intention to have dissuaded me cause of that, but STILL. I was like *gasps* how could youuu~? I'd have been the first to own one. Then I got pretty much menyamal... *cough* So I waited patiently... and now look! the iPad 2 is even much more awesome looking~ hahahahaha~!! that's what you get for being patient :)

Now, for the main course :D We would have several servings of nicely assorted goods!

First course of the day; the iPhone 5!

(the supposedly leaked photos of the iphone 5)

I had thought of getting the white iPhone 4... LOL, but what's the use? I already have the black one. Yeah I was impatient to own a better iPhone that the 3GS. Anyways! the iPhone 5~ I love how it's all sleek :D the most important bit is that it's white at the front :) Not totally agreeing with the silver back, though it does provide quite a sleek look! But the fact that it's thinner and reminds me a bit of the itouch offsets the idea that silver makes it more "harsh".

Next up; a complete Bobbi Brown make up set!

The perfect gift for me :D well... ONE of the perfect gift you could ever get me. hehehehe... I don't consider myself to be a cosmetic junkie or anything, but what girl would not WANT to OWN THIS?

All this time, I've been using Maybelline, Revlon, Face Shop, Etude, Body Shop and MAC cosmetics. And brushes from MAC and No. 7~ So, I have like this pink overstuffed makeup bag that I bring everywhere lol~ filled with all of my make up kits. *sigh* But nothing would ever compare to owning Bobbi Brown! :) I can't afford this just yet though... lol. I mean I could buy it, but what the fuck? I am not even earning shit yet, let's not buy something with that.

Oh, make up is the only thing that I purchase without asking for money from my walking bank a.k.a. Daddy xD I find that making my dad pay for my make up is just so funny~ hehehehehe!!

OHHH, this next one is so so so what I want soooo baaad~!

What's that thing I want so bad, you ask? A dior bag!

I love it! it's beige, is cute, quirky and fun looking XD hehehe... made out of lambskin, so it's not THAT gross... I hate crocodile skins... or anything reptilia. *shudders* I am into those stitch-like designs, always have been and always will be I think~ hehehe... I think the scrunched up bit makes it so cute! Like so casual and laid back that I just want to bring it around everywhere~ *snickers* I need to get more bags for my barren looking bag display/closet thing :(

To top it all off~ (my god, this is so fulfilling)

A Dior Christal timepiece! :D

It takes me FOREVER to buy a watch, I love watches, but I'm very pernickety when it comes to choosing what I like, sometimes I wouldn't even buy it if it doesn't give me 100% satisfaction. So unlike shoes, I buy impulsively, even if I'm remotely attracted to a pair of shoes, I'd buy it straight way! :D

BUT OMG! Loook what a gorgeous beauty she is! :') It just screams femininity! It's a stainless steel watch set with 44 diamonds. and those things on the straps are WHITE SAPPHIRE CRYSTALS! and it's totally waterproof :D It's perfecto mundo! I lurrrrveee it~ At £ 2.6k I think that's pretty awesome :)

As for dessert? :P teehee... THREE GUESSES on what my choice of dessert would be~~ XD

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what do you think I'd be seriously craving for based on what you've been reading on my blog for the past week? :P

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It's really not that hard to guess ahahahahhaha~

JAY PARK!

Oh why, yes... a nice dashing picture in black and white of Jay Park. LOL. I love how ripped he is... But still maintaining that nice slim figure, too buff just freaks the hell out of me. His body is like the Usher type~ Not like Dwayne 'the rock' Johnson... that's just way too buff-- that aside, I think the rock has a really nice smile :)

If only Jay can be purchased and owned for a life time. I would save up all my money and use up all my savings to make him mine :D *giggles uncontrollably* HEHEHEHEH.....

Okay, the things I crave for are all there. These are just the big ones. I always want to shop for things~ LOL! what are you saying~? Of course it's not just limited to these :p I think I'll make a list of shopping items for my next post. The small kinds :)

Okie dokie~ I shall be off now!

mucho love,

Nyssiee ;)