Amaranthine Intoxication

Changed my blog link due to numerous reason, one being I'm successfully getting stalkers. Yay. *rolls eyes* no but seriously, the same people who google the word slut and horny have been coming here. It's making me think I'm getting the wrong sort of attention from the wrong type of people.

Purple Poison was always one of my personal favourite actually... So I was kind of reluctant to part with it. I mean it IS simple, but it has a story behind it. A secret more like. But somehow it describes that period of time when I was in that state of mind and also the time where he was -- though a very small -- part of it. Regardless! He is STILL part of it la. So, as I am seriously trying to get rid of that asshole. A small reminder is still a reminder of a sort. Am I right or am I right? Lol.

But seriously, I am more passionate now in trying to get him out of my life because he's stupidly trying to reach out to me. FUCK LA *cough* excuse me. I just don't deal too well with people who were stupid enough to think with their penises. I was alright with my other exs because at least they didn't think with their dicks. Well they did, but you know, neither of our futures were riding on that relationship. Plus with the rest of them guys, we parted on amiable terms~ :) So I could still talk to them after a few weeks/months (depending).

Hmmm~ I'm not a cold heartless bitch or anything. But yeah, maybe I won't hate him anymore once the years have passed. Sorry though, just not now! :) OH but whatever, I have the right to ignore whomever I please. It honestly feels difficult though, I am really sorry towards the mother. *sigh* Sometimes I think I shouldn't think too much about that cause yeah... I need to completely get over it which means trying not to remember the kindness she gave me.

I'm the kind of girl who would put all her exs behind her, unless they're really nice guys worthy to have around. I only kept like.... two out of my 10+ boyfriends... (eheh). I am very picky. I love keeping the company of a selected few rather than have a lot of friends. That may not be the best option to you social people hahaha, but I feel like I can be more sincere with everyone that way :D ANYWAYS! Meleter pulak saye~ hahaha... wth.

AMARANTHINE INTOXICATION... so why have I chosen this particular name for my blog?

I've always had a slight tendency to like... do research on really random shit right. It really depends on what my thoughts are for that time. Through the years of growing up, it's safe to say that sometimes I have an obsession with certain things. I'm just curious about things.... At one point it was an interest in mythical creatures so I read up on a few of them and then about myths of the world and whatever. At one point I was intrigued by my lineage/heritage... I think I've even blogged about that at one point like yonks ago :p

So one time, like a few months back, I was looking at my room and how it looked so flowery... heehee... Inwardly I thought to myself, maybe my brain's telling me I've picked up an interest in flowers or... plants. *snickers* I like thinking that everything (coincidental) that happens in life are like signs from something of a 'higher' power. I mean not necessarily supernatural... it can be like how the brain's neurons combined with personality or whatever plays a role on things should be perceived............. that sounded like a whole lot of BS. HA! ignore that... :p

Anykahooies~ I don't know how I do it, but I just started surfing the net for really random things about flowers.... and I came across something almost poetic and pretty~ or maybe I'm just being a pretentious little shit hahahaha~ but no, I really felt like it was pretty... plus the word sounded pretty: amaranthine.

That's pronounced: a-muh-RAN-thin.... the stress is on the 'ran' bit. So it's "a flower that never fades." I was like... awwwwhh!! that's so cool :3 LOLs. I am such a simpleton sometimes... In my head I saw it as a beauty that never fades... :D cause flowers represent beauty :p thus why I thought that really... teehee~

What's more is that this particular flower is said to have an interesting hue of dark purple with red tinges.... I felt like it was fate that I came across this! hahahahhaha... awu lame, just because I love purple. So in a way, my url 'amaranthine intoxication' is kinda like a double entendre... maybe not even that, I guess it can have multiple meanings...

If you remember, my old url was purple poison. It's basically the same thing but with different words. or maybe I'm talking about a beauty that intoxicates the mind or whatever.... haahha you literature people can read into that if you'd like! But yes, I give things some amount of though if it's important to me :)

THERE, that about sums up my stupidly elaborate explanation of my new blog url! :P