Uhmmm... hello.

You know what's funny? What's funny to me is that for every time I feel like I connect with someone and I give them attention that might not be needed... They tend to get the wrong idea and start being all... weird. O_O); It makes me think I need to re-think how I should treat others, especially the opposite sex =/

I might seem like I want to like someone from my endless tweets about adoring this guy and that one. LOL, to the guys who I've been uhmmm... 'seeing', we're nothing serious are we? I know that because for one thing, y'all know I just got out of a serious relationship :P I'm not stupid enough to think that you might actually think we could get serious when I'm at such a 'vulnerable' stage. We're just having fun :) Ahh, I doubt they read my blog though, hardly anyone goes here unless they're people googling really ODD things O_O

I do miss having a guy wrap his arms around me, someone to hold my hand and hearing a guy say he misses me~ Honestly, I don't want it. Not NOW, at least not YET.

I can't be bothered with a guy right now. My stupid ex boyfriend broke up with me at the most crucial time of my life; he had to break the news to me when I HAD MY FREAKING EXAMS. And here I thought, I had sucky timing? HE'S THE WORST, worst time EVAARRRR. At least have the decency to keep me in the dark by lying to me a little while longer. He's been doing it for a while right? why not continue on just a little longer for my sake? My theory is, he wanted to get me outta the way as soon as possible :) It's okay, until the end, you were always just being you. Self-centered.

Presumably, I think I flunked this year. You know, instead of mourning the normal way, I watched Jay Park to heal my broken heart. I watched endless videos of him on youtube, because he made me smile and I would always wish that somehow I could find a guy just as funny and down to earth and dorky as he was, someone so determined and lovable. GOSH! that was really sad though~ my pathetic way of trying to forget about him.

BUT EHHH, I'm all better now, he's really dead to me. I've realised he really is just totally dead in my eyes and heart. After finding out stuff from people about this and that, visiting other parts of that country just to be with her when he would make up freaking lame excuses about traveling with me, guess he's pussy-whipped. That really was the last straw. I JUST DIED INSIDE. Like my heart broke for the very last time~ and after it was crushed to dust... My heart slowly came around again... It was a little weak from all the emotional destruction it went through but all is well :) So yeah, the heart that loved him completely and faithfully totally exploded and died, so he exploded and died with it. There is no way I can ever be friends with him. NO FREAKING WAY.

Shit, I sound so freaking dramatic. I have not changed much in that sense it seems~ dudiduuduu~

peace out XP