Told you so~!

Good morning :) I'm feeling a lot like myself again. I was stuck in a bit of a rut because of one thing and I was just putting the blame on everything else.

Now that I've got that one thing sorted out. I really feel like I've grown a little, just by a smidgen though.

Honestly, I take it back! I take back what ive said a couple of posts earlier~ It's been an exciting time for me :) I don't care if my way of letting out my frustration was a little unorthodox, it was good for me and it'll just be another one of my past experiences.

LG life is good lolololololololol random~!

Hmmm so I'm up early~ as usual. Oh, I slept for 5hours again... Barely even. I don't know why but my biological clock insists that I wake up early~ like at 7:30am is the latest time my own body allows me to wake up.

The longest I've gone without sleeping was 32hours. I miss those days when I'll stay up all day and night and being able to pull off looking like ive slept so as to not get anyone to notice~ but that was my limit; can't go over 32. After that I conked out and slept for half a day or sth xD hmmm... But I was a grouch though~ that part couldn't be controlled or held back hahaha~

So for a girl who says she loves romance and love. It's taking me a while to find a guy I like huh? Problem is, no one in Brunei is good looking...LOL. So mean of me hehe... :p But well, I haven't met a guy that could make me smile or blush just by looking at him.

I'm tired honestly :) men tire me out. They exhaust my tolerance level, my understanding and my efforts. But most of all, I hate how people can't accept the fact that men can be just a friend to me. How immature and close minded of everyone to think that I can't care for a guy without them thinking I like him.

Like give me a fucking break, stop spewing nonsense; if I liked a guy he'd be my boyfriend in no time. Well not instantly, but it sure as hell won't take him long to make a move because guys aren't stupid enough to let a girl they like, who likes them back, to go just like that~ if they're like that, then they're shit guys who don't have balls, but I wouldn't have entertained a guy like that in the first place.

If I'm nice to a guy-- I dont like him~ if I openly say his name, I don't like him. I'm a little complicated... If I like a guy or well, considering to be romantically involved; I don't spend much time with him and I'm not that nice.

I treat my girlfriends nicely~ I spend a lot of time with them, cook for them, watch movies with them, help them out with whatever they want help with, ask them to keep me company, I'm protective of them, cry if they're hurting, hug them and I can act manja with them... I talk about them~ tweet about them~ tease them.

So yeah, does that mean I'm into girls!? Because that same treatment I apply to my guy friends and all of a sudden pooof!! I like the guy or we have sth going on. It's stupid. I treat my friends of both sexes the same way.

And if any of my friends think I'm being a lesbian or if the guy thinks I like them then you're just stupid. Or maybe I need to change how I am with people~ but fuck it, I'm awesome, I shouldn't change.

I'm lovable as I am. So that goes to show I'm doing alright as a person. *sigh* one class got cancelled today... But a replacement class cropped up. So I still have to go to campus...

I think I'll go jog after class and see how far I can push myself. From now on, I'll try to live every day as if it's my last... sounds like a good plan! :)