Well you know, the upside to this is that I've stopped caring on how much hurt my ex has caused me. It's like... I'm not bitter anymore about the fact that I've invested and incorporated so much into our relationship, I've gotten over him (I'd like to think so) you know the person that he is, well the person he WAS, the guy that I came to love and fall for... I've been forgetting more and more each day but like, I still have not completely gotten over the betrayal. My uhmmm... ex's mom, yeah I still keep in touch with her, I think if I mention her anywhere in my blog, I'll just refer to her as Aunty :)
Aunty and I were catching up the other day -- I've been missing a great deal, been real busy with people, work and getting better-- anyways, she was asking how I was and we made small talk and I don't quite know why but I chose to impart to her the fact that I'm moving on... I didn't want her to worry so much. She's been a total sweetheart to me and she really wanted me to get over the ache inside. So I guess I told her the names of the guys I've been talking to; one in particular that I favor mentioning was..... uhmmm let's just call him peanutbutter :p
I guess it's noticeable that I like him most compared to the rest I've been actively getting to know. BUT, I digress... I simply just want everyone to know that I've gotten better.
A chuckful of thanks to all the great people for all your support and wisdom. Keeping me from doing stupid things, telling me to think of my actions and its inevitable consequences. I'm glad that I listened to you all, doing those things would only be and I quote one of my friend's words "a temporary fix" eheh heh... Hmmm... gets you thinking.
Don't worry okay? I won't like him, it's not going to happen. I don't think I want it to happen, as much as I am thinking about him constantly, like it just happened two days ago... (yeah, I'm totally crushing) I KNOW BETTER. Let's not do that yet... *shakes head furiously* no no no. NO.
I just hope one day I'll find what my sister has :) Actually what both my sisters have :') A love that seems to be everlasting and totally sempurna *sigh*
I just realised that in love, there is no room for selfishness, I don't know why I compromised my old belief at the expense of his behavior. Se-selfish mana pun orang ani kan, if they love someone, they'd make an exception.
I'm just thankful of how things work, that God has given me a nicely packaged distraction for now, until I find my True Jodoh. In the meantime I am healing :3
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